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New Hair Cut!! [16 Apr 2005|09:47am]
[ mood | depressed ]

http://photobucket.com/albums/v516/BleedingBeautyInred/

Look at the new pics... I got a hair cut... its so fucking short... and i might be moving!! to florida... with this guy named Mike who i like... but im still a lil confused bout josh... ehh... :( eh... I am going to AZ soon to visit Laura and her bf... ill be there for like 2 weeks... :( laura said she wants to keep me there lol haha!! :) I miss her so damn much!!!
:( anyways... i am out...

<3
I just wish i was as happy as she is right now... i just think sometimes... ill never be that happy... or have the balls to just leave like that... I wish icould do alot of things... but shit never seems to work out right... ok i am just gunna go i am getting myself depressed again!

:(

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Cracker!!! [31 Mar 2005|08:00am]
[ mood | depressed ]

well... i feel like shit... yesterday i hung out with jamie most of the day... and looka t my kyke ass awake at fucking 8 am... wtf....
Im being Jewed on my sleep man...
I miss my Lauralie... :( ehh i hope she is happy... i want her to be happy...
Ive been pretty damn depressed lately... to the point where i think i will start cutting again.... i dont want to but theres nothing else to do.... i really dont have anyone to talk to... seriously.....the guy i like.... i dont even think likes me like that... but he does call me like every day... ehh m confused...

---------------------------- i just want a clue on wtf to do....--------------

lately me jamie and nomi and pearly hahah we get crunk on that kit kat and head up to the park... well at least me and jamie do... LOL its so much funny!!!! little fucking kids running around and shit..... rawr.... well i am out like a fat boy in dodge ball.........

<3I LOVE YOU LAURALIE!!!!!!!!!!!

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Pics of me!!! and some other peeps!! [29 Jan 2005|08:23am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

http://photobucket.com/albums/v516/BleedingBeautyInred/

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WAKE-N-BAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [29 Jan 2005|08:21am]
[ mood | amused ]

I am sittin here... wake-n-bake... lol Havent slept yet... Dwayne, Mike Lee, and Jake didnt leave till LATE! Mike lee and dwayne didnt leave till 4 am and Jake stayed till 6 am!!! DAMN!!!!! hehe we were all just chillin listenin to music and shit.. hahah Naomi and Dwayne drew all over Mike Lees face... he was so drunk and passed out.. hahah!!! well i am chillin smoken a cig... naomi and pearl just ate... i went to McDs to get them Breakfast... so i didnt get shit to eat.. Not enuff mullah! but eh its ok.. id rather them eat then me... as long as theyre all healthy... eh... i got a Coke tho.. Yum! we havent slept yet!!!!!!!! AHHHH and i am suppose to go to Blakes this morning... but eh.. i think naomi would flip... and im paranoid bout gettin caught.. LOL but anyways... I am VERY happy with Blake... he makes me happy! He messed around with Drew's ex gf Ashley!!!!! AHHH when i found that shit out i was like WTF!! why me!!!!!!! but its ok its in his past so... i understand... i have done shit in my past and i dont want him to judge me for the shit i have done... so ill keep it to myself... altho i am NO angel... so eh.. :( Harlem X went to NY yesterday... to perform at the Apollo!!! I am so proud of them.. my lil brothers are gunna be RICH! and famous and shit.. eh... unlike me... well maybe.. with my Poetry.. i hope! well i am gunna go clean this Wake-n-Bake away! lol wish me luck!
<3

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My Babey Sam [11 Dec 2004|12:05pm]
[ mood | awake ]

Sam told me last night at Wal-Mart that he thinks he is in love with me... then he said No I am in love with you.... like me and him were in the Car stereo section hes gunna buy some... HES BUYING MY PARENTS A CAR STEREO FOR THE VAN... WTF.... but umm.... we started dancing in the aisle.. he played our song by Mario "Let me love you" and he was looking into my eyes and he said " Baby, i am so happy i found you... I think i am in Love with you... I really do... No you know what I do I love you! I wanna always be with you... i am always thinking about you.. I love you." I WAS BLUSHING SO FUCKING MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D i like him ALOT... but i dont know if its love yet.... i mean i think about him ALLLLL the time... and i get so worried about him cuz hes REALLy protective over me and hes kinda violent so hell beat any dudes ass.... so i just dont want him to get into trouble or anythin... hes so skinny too lol :) but hes strong as shit!! and so sweet and romantic... man... I am like in total bliss....
well.... Naomi and pearly are getting closer...s ometimes i think its like naomi is casting me away and stickin with pearly more... becuz of Sam.... wtf... when i am happy someone always wants to bring me down... :( I mean i am ALWAYS happy for her when she gets a man... but why cant she be happy for me.... man... i swear it makes me cry becuz shes MY little sister... no one elses... but its like her and pearly are sisters or some shit... whatever I dont need no one anyway.... "Suspect everyone, Trust No one!"
I CAN NOT FUCKING BELIEVE DIMEBAG DARRELL DIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG! :( thats some serious shit ..... :(
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~R.I.P DimeBag~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

alright i am gunna go... sam is coming back over.... so im gunna go get dressed... :)

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(*~*~*Wish*~*~*) [22 Nov 2004|09:44am]
[ mood | lonely ]

watching you as you sleep
your peaceful smile
your calm eyes
if only you were awake
i could stare into your eyes
talk to you
hear your voice
why wont you awake
speak to me
hear me
i wish you would open up to me
let me in
i wish i could know you
understand
i wish i could see you
know your name
your just a blur to me
a face
look at me!
find me!
I need to know who you are

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(*~*~*When I am Dead*~*~*) [22 Nov 2004|09:43am]
[ mood | depressed ]

I hope when i am dead
my face haunts your dreams
I hope when i am Dead
my voice rings in ur head
I hope when i am dead
my words cut through u like a knife
I hope when i am dead
my tears sting your eyes as much as they did mine
I hope when I am dead
the cuts on my arm scar yours
I hope when i am dead
You never forget me!

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RaWr! [12 Nov 2004|04:42pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Man... i have been coughin like a bitch lol everyone thinks i am getting Bronchitis or Pnemonia! :D sucks man!!! :( My chest hurts and ahh anyways... My cousins are here from hawaii... they moved up here cuz of her ASSHOLE bf was beating her up and her two babies!!! >:/

Monday i am going to register for classes at Nova then I have an appointment on wensday for a skool in arlington for classes on Massage Therapy!! :D yay!!! :D so ill be going to skool soon in Januray! :D YAY!!! hehe

http://photobucket.com/albums/v516/BleedingBeautyInred/

here are a bunch of pics of me and some peeps!!! :D yay! I actually like most of these pics which is REALLY rare!!! Havent seen laura and bob in a few days maybe a week... angel came back so shes there... and its a lil crazy so i dont feel like going over there... anyways...
I have some sort of a date with this guy tomorrow... a Navy man! lol hes 21 its kool we have ALOT in common so hehe :D its awesome Hes Druid!! :D YAY! hehe but he goes hunting.. im not to kool with that but its his thing so i wont stop him from doing that! :D but wish me luck with skool and Damos! :D

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Dreams [30 Oct 2004|03:12pm]
[ mood | melancholy ]

If you ever came to feel my pain
or drowned for a day in my lonely rain
You would know what its like to suffer in my hell
if you listened to the tales i have to tell
you would never again pass judgement on me
you may never understand why sometimes i flee
why i sometimes hide when the road gets rough
or run away when life gets tough
if you spent 60 seconds locked inside my head
you'd understand why life I dread
If you took a min to feel what I feel
you understand that my pain is so real
If you once, chokec on my tears
or had to fight through my fears
if you had to spend a day in my solitude
my nightmares you couldnt elude
the judgements you first passed would fade away
you would probably hit the ground and pray
to never again see the things ive seen
to never experience the dreams that i dream.....


I got this beautiful poem from a gurls page on Myspace!! I just love it so much!<3<3

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Crooked [19 Oct 2004|03:25pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

I feel blah... i wanna just lay down and watch the world float past me... watch everyone live their lives while i lie here and DIE! eh... depression is an interesting thing....

Silence is a deadly note!

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BLAH [17 Sep 2004|07:00pm]
Blah.... just wanted to say that...d ont know what else to say so i am out... gunna go play in the rain!
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I have come to a conclusion [14 Sep 2004|12:04am]
[ mood | giddy ]

ok u know that person that keeps writing in my journal... ive read all the shit theyve written to me over what the past few months... i think he/she is right... dressing this way is gunna get me no more... i should take all my piercings out... dye my hair Blonde!! thats more common! and ill go to college... major in i dont know Fashion managment... ill be NORMAL... just what society wants me to be... not an outcast... Oh and fuck being a loving person.. caring about the animals.. and our planet earth!! ill just become Christian... and not care... yeah thats what i will do!!!!
:D life will just be GRAND!

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VAMPIRE FREAKS... Pics :D enjoy kykerz [04 Sep 2004|10:06am]
http://vampirefreaks.com/profile.php?user=Razordr3ams




Hope these make u smile... if not eat my ass!!! :D
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[04 Sep 2004|09:59am]
http://www.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&friendID=2148977&friendName=Draven&Mytoken=20040904065602
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What a fucking day!!! [04 Sep 2004|09:53am]
[ mood | cranky ]

OK well... let me start about how i had 7 cops on my ass in one night... well i went to chill with this guy named Chris (met him at Chesapeake bay seafood house!)  and his friend stefan... well we were driving around... we went to the potomac, sat on the side watching the water it was so pretty! then he was like lets go look at this building i skate in... we went... and we were inside when cops pull up.. chris jumps out the second story building window to talk to the cops.. me and stefan are hiding inside... cops come inside.. ARREST me and stefan... had us in the back of the cars for like a half and hour.. deicded to let me go.. IN DUMFRIES AT 1 am.... alone... took chris and stefan to the police station for violation of curfew... but i was walking around dumfries..alone... at 1 am... wtf... so i call naomi, patrick and jake.. they come get me.. when we turn on birchdale... ANOTHER COP PULLS US OVER!! im like wtf!!! this just aint my night... LOL THEN jakes smart self told the cops he was picking me up from getting arrested somewhere else  (SMART!) lol jk  we get searched find knives... bats and stolen signs in jakes car... my work knife on me... man!!! WTF!!!! LOL some shit huh?!?!!?

well... everythings ok now.... Chris is probably ginna come with me to the lake with my parents and friends... were all gunna chill!! OL FUN TIMES EH'  as naomi would say!!
anyways... I am out like a fat boy in dodgeball!!!

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ehhh life [27 Aug 2004|10:55pm]
ehhh alright... a bunch of shit has happened... Osiris broke up with me.... but NOw he wants to be with me again... I dont know I HATE LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS!!!!! i do i do i do!! and i really do like Carlos... we talked alot last night... me and Carlos.... :( he is so sweet... But hed never date a gurl like "me" ehh that sucks... been working alot... dyed my hair LOL its red with black underneath.. its nice i think hehehe...
I WENT VEGETARIAN!! i am trying so hard to not eat meat... its so fucking hard tho.. chicken... ehhh I AM TRYING I AM TRYING... doing ok so far hehe! but ehh.. i am off... taking naomi laura heather and ben to a party... fuck it i just might go to it! :)
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Monuments and Melodies -Incubus [16 Aug 2004|01:29pm]
[ mood | happy ]

my hands are trembling
and my eyes are on fire
this house is crumbling
left grain left on the wire
yeah
yeah
You make me happy
You magnify my better half
you make me curtain
though all i have today is your photograph

my past is paralise
each scar i bare sings
monuments into where i have been
your melodies to where i am going
yeah yeahh
yeah

You make me happy
you magnify my better half
you make me certain
though all i have today is your photograph yeahh

when will i see you again
still ive can only go so far
need you infront of me
saying my name
saying to me
saying to me
saying to me ah
the way you are

you the way you are
yeah
yeah
you make me happy
you magnify my better half
you make certain
though all i have today is your photograph yeah
you make me happy
you make me happy
you make me happyy!!



I hear this song and i think of Osiris! I love you Babey!!!!!

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Monuments and Melodies - Incubus [16 Aug 2004|01:28pm]
[ mood | happy ]

my hands are trembling
and my eyes are on fire
this house is crumbling
left grain left on the wire
yeah
yeah
You make me happy
You magnify my better half
you make me curtain
though all i have today is your photograph

my past is paralise
each scar i bare sings
monuments into where i have been
your melodies to where i am going
yeah yeahh
yeah

You make me happy
you magnify my better half
you make me certain
though all i have today is your photograph yeahh

when will i see you again
still ive can only go so far
need you infront of me
saying my name
saying to me
saying to me
saying to me ah
the way you are

you the way you are
yeah
yeah
you make me happy
you magnify my better half
you make certain
though all i have today is your photograph yeah
you make me happy
you make me happy
you make me happyy!!

I hear this song,.... and i think of Osiris! :D You make me Happy!!!! I love you babey!

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Late night.. [08 Aug 2004|09:36am]
[ mood | confused ]

Late night on the phone with Osiris! :( he makes me happy but he lives all the way in New York... That sucks major anus!! we have so much in common... hes so sweet to me! he sacrafices things for me! Its great and id do the same for him... if he lived closer id be with him! I kn ow it...eh shitty huh?!?! Tattoo today!! wohoo!!! and pool... Hopefully we go to the pool!! I need some damn sun! hahaha I keep yawning... and my eyes tear up and the make up i do have on is runny! lol hm i dont care... well
Boredom is sinking into my head;... tiredness... Hmm maybe not LOL

Farewell!

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